Thursday, November 29, 2007 - MISTAKESoi made a terrible mistake yesterday, probably out of complete madness. when i was caught, my heart sank right to my ankles. i thought i can feel my legs & probably my ass as well. no one had any idea. & to that one special person, i'm sorry our day is spoiled. i'm sorry that things turned out like that. the fact is, i'm in it as well. i'm sorry i wasn't a good friend, sort of. i called a lot of people up for help.
i called up Godmom, Jonathon, Terrence, Susan, Heidi, Junjie, Apit & anyone i seriously could think of then. i was shaking, i was so scared then. there's so many incoming calls, & all that fucking old hag can tell me to do was to reject them. i rejected so many of Roslee's, Susan's & Jonathon's calls. then, Dad's number flashed on the mobile screen. i thought my heart skip a beat, & answer it uncertainly. i almost died, i swear. Mom came down to fetch me. i can't tear my eyes off her face, the look of despair & disappointment is everything that i did not ever want to see. i guess she's disappointed because she wasn't the first one that i called for help. but one thing she didn't know, is that when i was caught, she & Dad was all i could think of.
things were even more difficult to handle at home. i could never ever forget the tension & the atmosphere, never. i called up Godmom to cry & i called back Terrence, things still weren't okay. i called up Jonathon, Celine, Roslee & Justin to said that i'm sorry. i made a terrible mistake, i can't erase it away. i won't forget the punches & kicks that Dad threw at me today. never mind the bruises, i know i'm in the wrong & that i have let him down. i just, can't believe what's going on right now. i silently swore, that i don't want anything to do with that place anymore, which can be quite a funny thing.
hey, people make mistakes, don't they? even i did, know. have you ever screwed things up so much that you think there's nothing you can do to make any amentments? well, i do. i do.
profileDrew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause
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wishlistHe's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
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tagboardSo I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight
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affiliatesHe's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into...
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