Tuesday, October 16, 2007 - LETTING MY TEARS COME
the past few days have been pretty bad, yeah. i was home for almost the whole entire week. take that, will you? see if you can beat me to it. (: well, i called April up when it's about past 11, i cried. after i hang up, it then hit me, "hey, i finally memorised her mobile number!"

*pats on my own back.*

i spend my weekend at Granny's house, Jurong. Justin's there, & we had breakfast together. he's a darling, he poses & make faces when asked to be taken a photo with. i love it.

after a long day, was home, once again. i feel tired & i wanna go out badly. i miss the girls, i miss everyone. okay, maybe not everyone. well, you know what. i don't miss school.


yeah, not at all. i remembered, having a hard time this year. new class, new friends, new this, new that, everything seems new to me. i don't remember having a day in which i really enjoyed myself. i'm not indicating anything, but there's gonna be people somewhere here & there having a hard time. & some people just don't understands & makes it worst! i remember my sweet 16 this year, the worst image is kept, locked away somewhere in the bottom of my heart. i can only let little people know what happened.

you know, sometimes, it does you no good to let (certain) people know too much about you. no good at all. i do let people know about me. but if i ever have any doubt about you, i won't think about opening up to you. i just saw the message that Maria let in my mobile, as draft. i know it's meant for me to see, & i cried while reading it to myself silently.

i know i'm being appreciate for all the things that i have done. it's enough, it really is. sometimes, i just feel tired to carry on. i know i cry too much, but i came to know that it's okay. (: i'll just let it water my soul. despite staying at home for the whole week, i actually find it "fruitful" because i get to catch up on a lot of movies that i missed & those i wanted to watch so bad! Brother have given a website full of movies upload & i just find it fantastic! erm, don't ask me about it, he's only sharing it with me! :/ so far, i've watched -
  • 28 days later
  • a cinderella story
  • american pie wedding
  • benchwarmers
  • click
  • date movie
  • disturbia
  • evan almighty
  • final destination, final destination 3
  • freedom writers
  • hostel 2
  • house of wax
  • king kong
  • knocked up
  • material girls
  • mean girls
  • mr woodcock
  • the number 23
  • the pursuit of happyness
  • saw, saw II, saw III
  • spiderman, spiderman II, spiderman III
  • transformers

i know there are a lot of movies above that i have already watched. but so what?! it doesn't kill to watch them again & again! i'm also done with America's Next Top Model Cycle 8 since don't-know-how-many-freaking-months ago & now, i'm catching up well with the Cycle 9 of America's Next Top Model! (: i can't wait to watch more, i am so amazing.

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

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He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

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So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

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He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into...

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