Sunday, October 07, 2007 - FINALLY
because i didn't blog for ages, hell-fucking right?

i'm really sorry, it's all because for the N Level preparation & 1 more paper to go, & i can finally be free! the last paper is Design & Technology, on next Tuesday, so hopefully, i'll try to score as much as possible. (: i asked Dad about me having a job last night, & he just said -


i'm like, "okay, okay, no need so fierce right?" :/ it's not like i'm going to get into some trouble outside & stuffs like that eh. people whom i am close with probably knows that my parents can get all protective, all the time. i'm not very okay with it, because i want to be able to make my own stand & decisions, without having to disagree with it. but Dad & Mom, all i ever wanted, is for you two to be happy with me. i don't know, i just feel that i can never ever be good enough for you.

preparations for N Level was tiring, very very tiring, indeed. i was out almost every night for a week or so, doing revision with Yinru, April, Fadly, Baya, Maria & Ain. (: being home at 10.30 plus means scolding & nagging from parents. i know they care, but a lot have been happening & i didn't want to be rude. i just want some time of my own (with my friends). i mean, i'm going to be a parent someday & i definitely don't want my kids to hang out so late. but come on, dad, don't judge! just because you don't know them, you can't assume that they are bad people!

they are not, so not! in fact, all these while, they have been there at the lowest point of my life for you own daughter - me! so yes, dinner was so uneventful today. i could have burst into tears anytime. but thanks God, i saw Stephrene & Yinru, & waved to me & i practically screamed (for joy) when i saw them.


i miss Justin, i really do. now that my N Level is going to be over soon, one more paper to go, i'm hoping that Justin would make more visits! oh, hopefully, things would go well & shits won't happen, at home. meanwhile, i have fun & joy with many amazing i came to know all along. (:

i have fun, i definitely do. (: besides that, i basically, wanna thank a lot of people for being there for me at the lowest point of my life this year round. like, shitty things happened to me during the month of my birthday this year. i break down & couldn't seems to get myself up on my feet again. but once again, thank you. i won't name you people here, but i think you people know who you are. (: Dad & Mom have been great support. okay, maybe not that great, but firm? :/ well, at least it's you two who taught me how to be a really good person. Yaya's hugs was heartwarming, i'd definitely love to have her to hug me when i was about in the neighbourhood again.

holidays' drawing near for me, i came to realise that are so many people who loves me. fuck self-centered bitches who won't put themselves in other people's shoes. burn in hell then! i can't wait for the last paper to be over. then, i'll have my bangs back (because now, it reaches my nose) & yeah, i gonna make the school-less days amazing.

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

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He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

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So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

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He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into...

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