school was alright today, Thursday was so freaking long can? )': so anyway, lessons was a drag, like it take almost forever to reach end of the day! so anyway, went to the toilet & then to the D&T block. after that, i went out to the bubble tea shop near April's house to buy some bubble tea. we did some work, but after that was told by some teachers that there's some exams going on & our nailing is too noisy.

off we went to April's house, & i just can't believe it, that i left my fucking stuffs in school. i was so paranoid, that i was just about to cry anytime. i quickly put my bag in April's house, & went back to school, ensuring her that i'm really really going to be okay. but after i couldn't find what i really want to find, i really just sit down at the canteen & think for a moment.

"why am i doing all these? i'm really really tired. i just, can't take it anymore."

Mrs Tan came & saw me, & all i can do is to hugged her really tightly & cry my heart out. she just hold me, & let me cry on her or something like that. she said she read the letter that i wrote to my child, i'm just shocked when she said -

"if you don't try, no one else would. i read your letter, you've got potential."

i wasn't very convinced with myself though, but that's not going to stop me from trying.